In this devotional by J. Parker in her book on Intimacy Revealed: 52 Devotions to Enhance Sex in Marriage, she talks about inner beauty. She says what makes you beautiful is your inner beauty. She tells that “men are attracted to wives who are easy and engaging to be around; who live out the godly principles of kindness, goodness, joy and encouragement; who attend to their spirit as well as their body”(156).
I want to be that sort of woman that my husband wants to be with and wants to bed with. I certainly try to let my inner beauty show as much as possible. I’m not always godly that I should be for my husband, but I am working on it. I was very optimistic and positive when we started dating and things changed and now I’m getting back to it. So many things have happened in every area of my life. My husband tells me that I’m a very beautiful woman. He told me that the other day. He always calls me sexy but it’s only occasionally that he will say something other than sexy.
I feel beautiful when I feel like I am totally me in every area, not just physically but also emotionally and spiritually. I’ve had to allow the Lord work in my heart. Because there are times I still struggle, and I want to better myself.
I want to be the best mom, I want to be the best wife, I want to be the best friend, I want to be myself, I want to be the best photographer, and etc. I’ve never let my hearing disability stop me from achieving me in what I want to do and what I want to feel. I looked at the lenses of life and found the beauty in a lot of things, and I’m still doing that in other things and sometimes that’s hard. I feel like Satan is attacking me more than he did in the past. I want to smile more. I want to make my family feel like they are valued, loved and cherished in every area of themselves. I know the storms have helped me be stronger about myself and stronger in living life according to the Lord.
I’m sure there are many inner beauty attributes that have attracted my husband to me and still is attracted to me in these areas. I know we’ve been through a rollercoaster of a relationship and marriage for many years, and I am still amazed that we’ve survived it all and that my husband still loves and wants to be with me. I know that I am kind and generous and positive and spiritual when I can be. I know my husband loves it when I am at my most happiest. My smile is infectious to him.