In this devotion from J. Parker’s book on Intimacy Revealed: 52 Devotions to Enchance Sex in Marriage, she talks about past sins in regards to sex. J. Parker reminds us that we have been “washed, sanctified and justified” of our sins (84). Christ has taken these sins to the cross for us. We can be renewed in the eyes of God as long we repent, ask for forgiveness and do not continue in any sexual sins. God wants us to have beautiful and healthy sexuality in the context of marriage.
We have participated in sexual sins in the lines of pornography (adultery) in the past. I unfortunately did infidelity with someone else in the past. That chapter was closed three years ago. Also, we had pre-marital sex together before we were married (and I have also with two other guys before my husband as well).
We have confessed and repented and are forgiven of these sins. I have let go of my shame and guilt of my infidelity. God certainly has blessed my marriage more since my husband and I have reconnected as a whole for the last three years. Our sexual intimacy has been more pure. I feel like I am clean again. My husband has forgiven me and I’ve had to regain trust and I have gained that back. My husband is the only person I still want to be with and do for the rest of our lives together.